:-(

I miss qhairyl iyzmil so much and we've been so distant and all these constant fights I just feel like he think we won't work out and I'm just so afraid of him leaving me. I just need a sense of direction-- I need him to reassure me that he's never gonna leave me and hurt me like he did before and I don't think I can take that kind of pain ever again.

I love him so much and I know that its my fault that we've been having all these fights and I'd do anything to keep him from tearing me apart.