I was just another prey waiting to be caught in another one of the hunter's trap. Waiting to be skinned. Waiting to be ashamed. Waiting to be missed. Will I be missed, though? Will my absence be of any importance to anyone? Will anyone care if I wander off into nothingland and never come back?
A million and one questions I always ask myself. And yet I never seem to find the answer cause only you can be the judge of all that. I can't predict or say what you feel or want. Your desire your angst your courage your sorrow. All you.
I should have stopped at Hello. I should have known it was all a trap. I should have known I was another one of your preys. I should have known you would have never felt the same way about me. I should have known I was not good enough. I should have known I was not pretty enough. I should have known I was not funny. I should have known I was not your type. I should have known. I should have known.
To be honest, you really were the spark to my everyday fire. You were what made me, me. You brought the best out of me. You found a way to make me happy. You found a way to make me feel good about myself. You found a way to make me laugh. You found a way to make me smile. You found a way to make me happy. -- you found a way to make me insecure. You found a way to make me sad. You found a way to make me hate you. You found a way to make me have a gut feeling everytime I see you. You make me feel.
You ruined all that. Like glass. Shattered into a million pieces. Fixable but not perfect.
I'm torn.
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