You really hurt my feelings real bad this time and I know I'm not suppose to give you a second chance (eventhough you've already hurt my feelings once and I've already given you a second chance). I'm just not the sort of person to hold grudges. I know I would want a second chance when I screw things up. But its just...how could you?
You just made it impossible for me to feel the same way I did before. You're just like all the other guys. I really thought you were different. Thought you were one-of-a-kind. (Well you are in a way) agh I just can't believe I actually allowed myself to fall into your trap. I'm just another rabbit waiting to be skinned. Embarrassed. Ashamed.
Sometimes--no. I always wonder whether you force yourself to talk to me. Force yourself to keep up with the conversation. Force yourself to laugh at my jokes. Force yourself to put up with me. You don't have to anymore, you know. You never did. If I wasn't interesting enough then just leave. Get up and walk away.
Friday, February 24, 2012
nothing's right, im torn.
I was just another prey waiting to be caught in another one of the hunter's trap. Waiting to be skinned. Waiting to be ashamed. Waiting to be missed. Will I be missed, though? Will my absence be of any importance to anyone? Will anyone care if I wander off into nothingland and never come back?
A million and one questions I always ask myself. And yet I never seem to find the answer cause only you can be the judge of all that. I can't predict or say what you feel or want. Your desire your angst your courage your sorrow. All you.
I should have stopped at Hello. I should have known it was all a trap. I should have known I was another one of your preys. I should have known you would have never felt the same way about me. I should have known I was not good enough. I should have known I was not pretty enough. I should have known I was not funny. I should have known I was not your type. I should have known. I should have known.
To be honest, you really were the spark to my everyday fire. You were what made me, me. You brought the best out of me. You found a way to make me happy. You found a way to make me feel good about myself. You found a way to make me laugh. You found a way to make me smile. You found a way to make me happy. -- you found a way to make me insecure. You found a way to make me sad. You found a way to make me hate you. You found a way to make me have a gut feeling everytime I see you. You make me feel.
You ruined all that. Like glass. Shattered into a million pieces. Fixable but not perfect.
I'm torn.
A million and one questions I always ask myself. And yet I never seem to find the answer cause only you can be the judge of all that. I can't predict or say what you feel or want. Your desire your angst your courage your sorrow. All you.
I should have stopped at Hello. I should have known it was all a trap. I should have known I was another one of your preys. I should have known you would have never felt the same way about me. I should have known I was not good enough. I should have known I was not pretty enough. I should have known I was not funny. I should have known I was not your type. I should have known. I should have known.
To be honest, you really were the spark to my everyday fire. You were what made me, me. You brought the best out of me. You found a way to make me happy. You found a way to make me feel good about myself. You found a way to make me laugh. You found a way to make me smile. You found a way to make me happy. -- you found a way to make me insecure. You found a way to make me sad. You found a way to make me hate you. You found a way to make me have a gut feeling everytime I see you. You make me feel.
You ruined all that. Like glass. Shattered into a million pieces. Fixable but not perfect.
I'm torn.
nothing's right, im torn.
I was just another prey waiting to be caught in another one of the hunter's trap. Waiting to be skinned. Waiting to be ashamed. Waiting to be missed. Will I be missed, though? Will my absence be of any importance to anyone? Will anyone care if I wander off into nothingland and never come back?
A million and one questions I always ask myself. And yet I never seem to find the answer cause only you can be the judge of all that. I can't predict or say what you feel or want. Your desire your angst your courage your sorrow. All you.
I should have stopped at Hello. I should have known it was all a trap. I should have known I was another one of your preys. I should have known you would have never felt the same way about me. I should have known I was not good enough. I should have known I was not pretty enough. I should have known I was not funny. I should have known I was not your type. I should have known. I should have known.
To be honest, you really were the spark to my everyday fire. You were what made me, me. You brought the best out of me. You found a way to make me happy. You found a way to make me feel good about myself. You found a way to make me laugh. You found a way to make me smile. You found a way to make me happy. -- you found a way to make me insecure. You found a way to make me sad. You found a way to make me hate you. You found a way to make me have a gut feeling everytime I see you. You make me feel.
You ruined all that. Like glass. Shattered into a million pieces. Fixable but not perfect.
I'm torn.
A million and one questions I always ask myself. And yet I never seem to find the answer cause only you can be the judge of all that. I can't predict or say what you feel or want. Your desire your angst your courage your sorrow. All you.
I should have stopped at Hello. I should have known it was all a trap. I should have known I was another one of your preys. I should have known you would have never felt the same way about me. I should have known I was not good enough. I should have known I was not pretty enough. I should have known I was not funny. I should have known I was not your type. I should have known. I should have known.
To be honest, you really were the spark to my everyday fire. You were what made me, me. You brought the best out of me. You found a way to make me happy. You found a way to make me feel good about myself. You found a way to make me laugh. You found a way to make me smile. You found a way to make me happy. -- you found a way to make me insecure. You found a way to make me sad. You found a way to make me hate you. You found a way to make me have a gut feeling everytime I see you. You make me feel.
You ruined all that. Like glass. Shattered into a million pieces. Fixable but not perfect.
I'm torn.
Saturday, February 18, 2012
I have thought about suicide. That's sometimes normal, I guess? I just sometimes don't see why people have to beat me up about everything. My mum for instance, gets so mad at me when I'm having my own problems. Sometimes I don't wanna talk about it and that doesn't mean you have to force me to do so. And then give me the cold shoulder for not telling you and not being happy? That really isn't gonna make things any better.
I have my flaws. I vent. I say the wrong things to people and no I'm not saying that makes me any better than my mum or anyone for that matter. But its something I do that I've got to change. I don't mean what I say, most of the time, and even if I do, I know for sure that I want to take it all back.
I shouldn't let my emotions take over me like a monster (crank) take the life out of Katherine. Cause the monster didn't do nice things to me and I'm sure my emotions won't either.
I have my flaws. I vent. I say the wrong things to people and no I'm not saying that makes me any better than my mum or anyone for that matter. But its something I do that I've got to change. I don't mean what I say, most of the time, and even if I do, I know for sure that I want to take it all back.
I shouldn't let my emotions take over me like a monster (crank) take the life out of Katherine. Cause the monster didn't do nice things to me and I'm sure my emotions won't either.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Things people say that gets on my nerves
Indirectly speaking this is, yes, a rant post.
1) 'I don't have a Valentine for valentine's day! :'(((('
First of all, what the hell could possibly go wrong if you don't? You bimbos do know that there are worse things that could happen to you than not having a valentine, right? What, do you guys suddenly find the cure for cancer the minute a guy/girl asks you to be his/her valentine? *i don't have a valentine now I'm now gonna find the cure for cancer umf :((((* no. Just no. You'll live.
2) 'I wanted an LV bag but my mum just bought me a Guess bag. WTF??? I hate my life'
You should be bloody grateful that your parents can even afford to put a roof above your head and clothes on your back and food in your tummy. All the other pleasures are just a bonus. You should be grateful. People in third world countries can't even afford food and can barely even call the place they sleep Home. So, stfu.
3) 'are your dumb? Seriusly. you're english is sucks'
HAHAHAHAHA WHY NOT JUST STFU CAUSE YOU SOUND WORSE.
NIMROD.
4) *after a football game and your team loses* 'that was just unfair. The referee was so paid to make them win. And our team was tired it was so obvious' blablablablabla so on and so forth.
OKAY, so why not just admit defeat and stfu? Whatever happened, happened. Nothing you say or do can improve their skills or whatsoever. Sure you're pissed cause they lost but really do you actually have to make up so many excuses cause in your eyes they are 'THE AWESOMEST TEAM EVAAAAAH' yeah sure everyone feels that way about their favourite team.
So that's 4 so far. And to be honest I got all this from Twitter.
Conclusion: SOME PEOPLE ON TWITTER ARE IDIOTS
1) 'I don't have a Valentine for valentine's day! :'(((('
First of all, what the hell could possibly go wrong if you don't? You bimbos do know that there are worse things that could happen to you than not having a valentine, right? What, do you guys suddenly find the cure for cancer the minute a guy/girl asks you to be his/her valentine? *i don't have a valentine now I'm now gonna find the cure for cancer umf :((((* no. Just no. You'll live.
2) 'I wanted an LV bag but my mum just bought me a Guess bag. WTF??? I hate my life'
You should be bloody grateful that your parents can even afford to put a roof above your head and clothes on your back and food in your tummy. All the other pleasures are just a bonus. You should be grateful. People in third world countries can't even afford food and can barely even call the place they sleep Home. So, stfu.
3) 'are your dumb? Seriusly. you're english is sucks'
HAHAHAHAHA WHY NOT JUST STFU CAUSE YOU SOUND WORSE.
NIMROD.
4) *after a football game and your team loses* 'that was just unfair. The referee was so paid to make them win. And our team was tired it was so obvious' blablablablabla so on and so forth.
OKAY, so why not just admit defeat and stfu? Whatever happened, happened. Nothing you say or do can improve their skills or whatsoever. Sure you're pissed cause they lost but really do you actually have to make up so many excuses cause in your eyes they are 'THE AWESOMEST TEAM EVAAAAAH' yeah sure everyone feels that way about their favourite team.
So that's 4 so far. And to be honest I got all this from Twitter.
Conclusion: SOME PEOPLE ON TWITTER ARE IDIOTS
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