That moment when you're such a big disappointment to everyone and you feel like there's just only such a few people in your life to actually give you a reason to live. Like my mother for instance. I'm a big disappointment to her. I'm so useless. I help around the house but its never good enough. I'm probably the worst daughter anyone could have. I'm never good enough for her. I'm not smart. I'm fat. What mother wants a fat daughter? I'm rude. I have anger issues. And my father. He never sees me. He obviously think I don't have dignity. I'm probably a slut for having a boyfriend. Again I'm not smart.
I'm a disappointment to both my parents. But then I have my friends. And they still cheer me on.
But the minute you're a disappointment to the one and only boy you love is just. Its heart-wrenching okay. Its just the only person I can depend on gets so disappointed in me over something so small and then we fight and we fight and we fight. I mean, I avoid all these topics I know will lead to fights but he doesn't. And then suddenly its all my fault. I hate how everything is my fault with everyone. And I just don't wanna talk to him about my shitty days because somehow I'd just be selfish. I don't think I'll ever wanna tell him any of my problems anymore cause it hurt me when he told me I talk and I don't listen. What's the use.
So sick and tired of feeling sick and tired
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