I am honestly mentally and physically and emotionally tired. Spm is really killing me and its only what, the third week? All this is just one big joke. I mean I know none of my friends have actually really started studying but I mean if I want to win the race, I've got to be the turtle. Does that make sense? Yeah I mean I'm not the brightest student and I've got to catch up with my friends. But that doesn't mean I've got to be hammered and drilled and has to be studying 25 hours a day. That's insane. I've got to like balance my life, no?
I don't see why I can't have a 'social life' (pfsh like I actually have one) and my studies. I don't see why parents have to suck the fun out of everything. Then again, they're parents. What to do, what to say. I know they're just worried sick about us and want the best for us and I know one day I'm gonna thank my mum for all this but I'm just going crazy and yes I've said this about a gazillion times but its only the 3rd week of school! That's just...sigh. I'm going back to my rabbit hole. Hm tally-ho!
Friday, January 20, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
hardly on the seabed.
I walked into my room and there it was. A box. it was a scarf. And I thought who'd want to give someone a scarf? And he told me 'that's not your gift, dummy' and he blind folded me. I so eagerly wanted to know where we were headed. But the breeze. The smell of fresh air. I knew we were headed somewhere wonderful;magical. I got out of the car and I could hear the waves lapping, the sound of sea gulls overhead. The smell of the ocean. I immediately knew where we were. He untied the blindfold and he set out a picnic for me. Just what I needed. A whole day with him, just him and I. No one else but the sea gulls and the warm summer breeze.
We watched the sunset together and listened to coldplay all night and talked about all our favourite books. And then I witnessed the most magnificent ineffable thing ever, something we could never get in the city-- the stars. It just overwhelmed the sky and I felt so happy. He told me to stop, and capture this exact moment. 'Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones', he sang. He told me to never leave this place we're in. I didn't want to leave. I wanted to be with him for as long as I could.
And then suddenly.....I woke up. I just knew that this was more than just a crush.
We watched the sunset together and listened to coldplay all night and talked about all our favourite books. And then I witnessed the most magnificent ineffable thing ever, something we could never get in the city-- the stars. It just overwhelmed the sky and I felt so happy. He told me to stop, and capture this exact moment. 'Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones', he sang. He told me to never leave this place we're in. I didn't want to leave. I wanted to be with him for as long as I could.
And then suddenly.....I woke up. I just knew that this was more than just a crush.
Book Review #1: Perks of Being a Wallflower
Before I begin my review of that book I'd like to tell you what I did today!
Went to Summit with Yi peng and we studied accounts (it was pretty productive) and I bought a new book to read yay. Its the second Vampire Academy book: Shadow Kiss. I'm so excited to indulge in this old obsession of mine. The only logic vampire book,really. So I had a really good time, had a lot of laughs (was kinda afraid I'd choke on the bubble tea I was drinking). Wish I could post an outfit of the day picture! But I'm using my phone (damn flibbit)
Anyhooo, I finished reading perks about a day ago. Surprisingly, looking at how thin the book is, I finished it in 3 days. I mean come on with my busy schedule? I deserve a round of applause *throws confetti*. So okay I rate the book an all in all, a good 8/10. First of all I guess you've got to be open minded to read it cause it contains some sex scenes, drugs and other stuff like getting wasted with *space cakes and alcohol at the age of 15. I don't mean this in an offensive way (I have come across malaysian's who think they're caucasian just cause they're of mixed parentage) but come on, they're Americans what do you expect? They live life to the fullest, carefree. *space cakes are brownies with weed in them.
All in all it really is a good book and to be honest, I don't think Charlie (main character) is a wallflower at all. He just has a unique way of think and speaking and sticks to one crowd. (Tbh I'd definitely date a guy like him haha open to so many things yet very reserved) I'd totally recommend this book and omg the movie is coming out so that's a +1 :-) enjoy!
Went to Summit with Yi peng and we studied accounts (it was pretty productive) and I bought a new book to read yay. Its the second Vampire Academy book: Shadow Kiss. I'm so excited to indulge in this old obsession of mine. The only logic vampire book,really. So I had a really good time, had a lot of laughs (was kinda afraid I'd choke on the bubble tea I was drinking). Wish I could post an outfit of the day picture! But I'm using my phone (damn flibbit)
Anyhooo, I finished reading perks about a day ago. Surprisingly, looking at how thin the book is, I finished it in 3 days. I mean come on with my busy schedule? I deserve a round of applause *throws confetti*. So okay I rate the book an all in all, a good 8/10. First of all I guess you've got to be open minded to read it cause it contains some sex scenes, drugs and other stuff like getting wasted with *space cakes and alcohol at the age of 15. I don't mean this in an offensive way (I have come across malaysian's who think they're caucasian just cause they're of mixed parentage) but come on, they're Americans what do you expect? They live life to the fullest, carefree. *space cakes are brownies with weed in them.
All in all it really is a good book and to be honest, I don't think Charlie (main character) is a wallflower at all. He just has a unique way of think and speaking and sticks to one crowd. (Tbh I'd definitely date a guy like him haha open to so many things yet very reserved) I'd totally recommend this book and omg the movie is coming out so that's a +1 :-) enjoy!
Monday, January 16, 2012
I sometimes wonder what other people are thinking. Why they pick this or sing that or do this or say that. That's what sets us apart isn't it? But sometimes I wonder what makes a person so bitter, so negative. Were they not loved as a kid? Do they have problems at home? Or are they just plain negative?
I was reading Perks of being a Wallflower and it really made me change my perspective on things. I used to whine about how fat I feel yet I'm not doing anything about it (I'm starting soon I swear haha mum got me a personal trainer) (omg what if he's hot?) (Doubt it) anyways I mean it is true though, other people have it worse than I do and all I can do is complain my butt off.
I have gone through the whole bullying phase and to be honest, it doesn't make you feel nice. They talk bad about you they humiliate you they make fun of you they make you feel like pure shit. Yes I said the 'S' word, kids. (Lol)
Just lay of the snarce comments and you'll make everyone else around you happy. I'm just saying cause people have written really awful things about me and I just don't see why I should fight back, right? Lay off.
I was reading Perks of being a Wallflower and it really made me change my perspective on things. I used to whine about how fat I feel yet I'm not doing anything about it (I'm starting soon I swear haha mum got me a personal trainer) (omg what if he's hot?) (Doubt it) anyways I mean it is true though, other people have it worse than I do and all I can do is complain my butt off.
I have gone through the whole bullying phase and to be honest, it doesn't make you feel nice. They talk bad about you they humiliate you they make fun of you they make you feel like pure shit. Yes I said the 'S' word, kids. (Lol)
Just lay of the snarce comments and you'll make everyone else around you happy. I'm just saying cause people have written really awful things about me and I just don't see why I should fight back, right? Lay off.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
dumb regrets
Have you ever done or said anything you regret? I'm pretty sure everyone has regretted doing/saying at least one thing in their lifetime. Well I regret letting go. I regret saying goodbye. I regret shutting the door to an opportunity I will never have again. I regret letting go of my best friend.
He was my everything. He used to tell me how beautiful I am. He was there for me through thick and thin. He was there for me when stick and stone broke my bones. He was there for me when I was happy. He was there for me when all I wanted was a hello. But I let him go. You see, he was more than a best friend to me but I can't quite put a label on what we used to have. I loved him. But I got, bored. He started going out till dawn he picked up smoking. He was rarely there for him when I needed him and honestly someone might've replaced him. But I regret all that now cause I just hit an epiphany: that no matter how hard I try, things will never turn out the way I wished and hoped it would and I was being a stupid naïve teenager.
Yes, I am filled with regrets. There's no turning back now.
He was my everything. He used to tell me how beautiful I am. He was there for me through thick and thin. He was there for me when stick and stone broke my bones. He was there for me when I was happy. He was there for me when all I wanted was a hello. But I let him go. You see, he was more than a best friend to me but I can't quite put a label on what we used to have. I loved him. But I got, bored. He started going out till dawn he picked up smoking. He was rarely there for him when I needed him and honestly someone might've replaced him. But I regret all that now cause I just hit an epiphany: that no matter how hard I try, things will never turn out the way I wished and hoped it would and I was being a stupid naïve teenager.
Yes, I am filled with regrets. There's no turning back now.
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