I've been so emotionally tired and fragile lately. I just realised how long it has been since I last hugged someone. I haven't gotten a meaningful hug from anyone for a long time and it really stings. Cause everyone needs a hug. Sex and age can't get in your way.
and I took a test which told me that I'm suffering from severe depression disorder. What does that even mean? I'm only 17 and I already feel this way. I'm suppose to be happy, out and about. Instead I'm still single, sitting at home, reading book after book and not spending my last year of high school like how you're suppose to.
I sometimes feel like I don't have anyone to talk to. And even if I do sometimes I don't know if I can actually trust them. Will they use my problems and secrets against me? Will they hurt me knowing I trust them with my feelings and emotions? I don't anymore. I feel like I'm always there for people and no ones there for me. Everyones either to busy with life or just don't give a shit.
I miss Qhairyl Iyzmil. Once upon a time, he was my everything. He was my big break to happiness. He was my best friend. But really, where do we stand now? He's not here for me now.he's too busy. he yet again, broke his promises. I might have let him go, but I do have my reasons. I'm just not ready to let anyone abuse my vulnerable heart. I'm not ready for another break up. I'm not ready for the constant crying.
What does it take for a teenage girl to get some loving?
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