forgiveness

we should always forgive. we might not forget but forgiving is the key to happiness as well. other than telling the truth or just giving in. i know I've done so many things in the past for people to not even want to forgive me but we're all humans here. i was hurt by someone i really really loved and as angry as i am, I'm willing to forgive him for everything he has done. yeah sure he has poached my heart but that's beside my point. my point is forgiving someone sincerely let's go a big grief and your shoulder sort of feels lighter.

forgiving doesnt mean things have to go back to normal. it just means that you forgive that person and just let go. as logn as you're in talking terms then everything is fine. i've forgiven my ex for what he's done but that doesn't mean im not hurt on the inside. it doesn't mean im still sad or angry. it just means i've made another person's day. i just wish for everyone to see that i'm not a bad person. i'm not mean. i know ive made my mistakes but like i said, forgiveness brings happiness. happiness leads to peace.

free hugs xo

Meet my buddy, Azrai :-)

i was bored.

what am i?

im just a girl dreaming to become a writer

im just a girl dreaming to open my own bakery

im just a girl dreaming to have a lovely, perfect husband

im just a girl.

face the fact honey,

i was in love. no it wasn't puppy love, i swear i could smell real love in the air. he could make me feel so many different emotions at one time, as no one has done so to me ever. he made me feel alive, he made me see the world clearly. i really thought he was the one. how stupid was i to believe in forever and ever. But i was just a young naive bitch who was a sucker for love. of course he left me.

ive been trying so hard not to think about him but what do you do when you were with a guy for almost 2 years right. but thats no excuse. he, well he obviously moved on with some anon college girl. whom he proclaims to be the hottest girl on campus. it bothered me yes it did. i mean uh hello i am the dumpee.what do you expect coming from a sixteen year old girl who was sucked into all this madness. creating her own illusion of a happy ending. a happily ever after she's always dreamed of having. well guess what i didn't need love and hey look, im still alive. still happy.

im someone who does not believe in happy endings. life ends with death. tell me how thats happy. so yeah, happy endings does not exist. they only do in fairytales and one day im gonna tell my daughter that happy endings does not exist. forever does not exist. because i wanna prevent her from crating a fantasy and somehow get hurt in the near or distant future. i know i sound mean but hey i wish my mum had done so when i was a kid so i didnt believe that there was hope to be with this douche bag forever.

so i try keeping myself occupied like right now, blogging. it really keeps me away from thinking about him. expect this post though, it is about 'love' and 'him'. but whatever. when life gives you lemons, make apple juice, if you catch my drift.

free hugs xo

help world, im alive.

im back. i decided to delete all my posts since it all regarded my ex and whatever. yes i used to blurt all my feelings about my ex on my blog. helped calm me down every time i missed him. we're obviously not together anymore but still friends though :)

i will be back. wont blog much since my computer is down. love you guys.